Poem 11

there was something i was going to say to youbut when i dont know what youve been throughits more crushing when you replylike this is a kind of goodbye

tell me not what brought me thereor what kinds of speech i made in errorthat you dont feel it reasonableto converse in a way thats meaningful

say that im not one in deniali would ask if that werent juvenillebut let me speak from my heartand not from this place of nonsense so far

i just wish you had the timeto see all thats been on my mindand that in any way i can confesslike ive long carried you in my chest

you are to me so many thingsthat love alone could not bringlike when you said to keep it safeso that part of me was not erased

i wish i could know nowwhat there is to be foundit is a hard taskdeciding to make this last

its not the same were i to sayto take this all awayor to tell you to waitlike that could cause a break

so while i wait for everything and i to changeshould i just sway day to dayor should i continue to press on in my faithat least tell me something i can take

like how i thought i moved on onceand felt desire that superceeded a bondthat i have broken, as i thoughtbut with what strenth had i fought

at least let me know ifi had ever hurt you by itor if you are now okayin the kind tht i have prayed